He passed, I was sad for a long time; but, then life moved on. Everyday life keeps us all busy. The stresses of work, relationships, money, politics, car problems, etc. It becomes so easy to push to the back of our minds how we intended to change our lives after losing a loved one. How we wanted to embrace life more fully and not get bogged down with the everyday bullshit.
Until another tragic event occurs.
A sweet friend of mine was diagnosed with breast cancer this year. She was going through chemo like a trooper! Honestly, her emails of her progress were INSPIRING! I eventually emailed her and told her that it was okay to feel pissed off every now and then. But she responded by saying God was good and she was feeling great and had found a new calling in her life...to help those going through this once she herself got through it. Amazing. But then she was dealt another blow. A virus has attacked her brain and she is in the ICU for over 2 weeks now.
I visited her last night. And it has left me with that feeling once again of how precious life really is. She is unable to talk, has lost all of her hair, has a feeding tube in her nose, but, I swear, she still has a fight in her spirit. We locked eyes and I know that she knows (has ALWAYS known) how precious life is and she is NOT finished living hers.
Nothing matters in the end except that I was loved and that I gave love, and that I lived my life to the fullest...whatever that may mean for me...for each of us.
Please help me to remember this, friends. Let's help one another remember this.
And lets all please say a prayer for B. She still has a lot of life to live.